今日は.... Wednesday, July 28, 2010 です。
wa... ytd after writing i feel so good... And today i dun feel so stress and those unhappiness thing blot inside me le... But 1 thing i still wan complaint... hehe...
Somebody, ai ya i really dun noe how to say... Is just like thing she can do then if ppl do to her she wont like it... Is like i can do but u cant that kind of feeling la... wa... sometimes she come sch hor can give u the moody face everyone will noe her mood of the day wan leh... She will dun feel like talking to u, just answering u back un and ar, then ignore u then went off without saying bye when ppl in toilet then will end up wondering where she go le... She can show and express herself to others but when i also did she cant tolerate it... I say wat i wan to say, i dun like keep thing in heart actually... So unlike her, i say out all my unhappiness i say out wat i wan say with words that i put my feeling and stress in it... But instead of understand me, or she can say was i change... Wat i change?? i no change hor... Just bcos i nv rant out like that does not mean i wont... 3, 4 days of complainting all this she end up concluding i change... Is ur opinion of me change... thats all...
So to conclude, i learn my lesson...
Dun anyhow trust that all friend can digest ur complaining and ranting of how unhappy u were... At least i'm still glad that my 2 other friend still listening to me la... Even though they no ask wat happen or comfort me...
So now 1st thing that i must learn is dun open up too much to her... i did it, i rant out my feeling at her and it ending up all she can think is i scold her...
I still treat her as good friend... Friend will always be friend... Wan treat me like enemy i also cant do anything... All i can say now was i'm so scared of talking to u already... If i wan share thing like maybe gossip about other ppl u will comment i talk bad about ppl at others back and here u will be ok... But there u will be writing i dun like it when she say ppl bad thing behind ppl back... I wan complaint i ended up being comment that i scold and hurt ur feeling... Scarly i wan tell u how happy and free i am now, i will end up being comment as showing off... Watever it is, maybe till u open up to me that i can relax if not i will end up as being said that i watever watever...
Ohoh btw to saii if u reading this... Thanks for telling me about i misheard u... So sorry that i misheard it... But even if u did, i also will post here and there then will forget wan la... I dun really remember things much wan... Nothing has chnage in me... i'm still always me... If got ppl dun like how straight i am just say... Dun give comment here and there...