今日は.... Wednesday, April 28, 2010 です。
This post is for me to nag la... Ignore it if u think is very lengthy wif so many words and all my random stuff...
2 weeks later, i will have to do a presentation on change management... Can be any kind change... We have to present on a drastic or dramatic change we have or had face... Everyone who noe me well will noe i have gone through this change... Yup and i plan to do that change...
Hmmm... she was my best friend until last year... We have very good memories tgt and these good times will be kept in my heart... Since i already plan to even share this wif my other classmate and teacher, it also means that i have already accept everything... Her name is no longer a taboo to me... i have learned to truly accept it...
During that time was a big change for me... Suddenly losing a friend like her after 5 years of friendship... And of cos like wat teacher say, everyone will go into a denia state which is when ppl start to lie to themself that nothing has happen or keep telling themself everything will be fine... I went into this state... I cant belive this has happen even though her action has already tell me to stop bothering her... i continue to bother her, smsing her and ask her out like wat we normally do... Until i finally understood and realise it...
There was even a time i felt like i have to stop being so nice to those friend around me cos i was so afraid that friends will betray me... I tot that i have to stop being so friendy and nice to my poly friends... But then i felt so embarrassed wif myself after meeting them the next day in sch... They and her are different... How can i group them wif her??? I'm so wrong... Even though is a 1 and half year of friendship but we shared almost everything in sch and outside sch... The 4 of us always have thing to share... Now i super treasure them... i wont be so stupid to think about that anymore.... And of cos never forget my other sec sch friends... All of u are my best friend...
To bella who always keep reminding me of her... Haha cos u keep using her as topic last time when we have dinner... I wont run away anymore... Me and her no matter how will see each other wan... Even if i try to reject all of the gatherings wif u all to avoid her, she live so near sure will see her... Everytime i open the window, her house will be infront of me... Everything and everyone around me will keep reminding me of her existence... But to tell u the truth, we cant go back to how it was before... We can no longer go back... I wont run away from her le... To me she was like went off for a trip leaving me alone without telling me and came back as a different person...
Now i felt that i no need to preapre for wat to say for my presentation... Everything happen not long ago only... I just need to prepare some slides and my story will just come out from my mouth... haha... no need any preparation...