今日は.... Tuesday, August 25, 2009 です。
Is not my fault that everything will turn out like this... Everyone seems to blame me for why being so selfish not accepting her all this... But i am not wrong... Dun forget that is she who start drifting further and further away from me... she destroy the bonds between us first... I have always treasure this friendship so much but see now, i got hurt more and more... Long ago i already see our bonds are getting weaker... i tried to sms her all this but she choose to ignore my existence... She say sometime is bcos she very late then see my message but she did not even bother to reply or explain the next day... She have already given me the message that i'm useless now... I'm nagging right? isit? i care too much already isit? or is it i always stick to same things so u got boring? I'm nothing now compare to ur life now... U dun trust me anymore... U now very sad? crying? struggling now? but so wat? all this have happen to me before already...
One day u call and wan to settle our friendship... didn't i open my arms big enough for u on that day already? i trust u so much that u really wan to save it... But u choose to ignore my existence again... So hurt me once more... So now i give up, and u came coming saing that u ur sorry all this... Wat's the use actually? U wan hurt me once more is it? No one can guarantee that the same things wont happen again... I have the right to protect myself from u... So now u noe the prob? There is no trust between us anymore...
If u think i always complain in my blog that make u very embarrass then i will stop... So dun force urself to keep saying wan be my friend again ok? i noe in ur heart deep down u dun wan it... Now u all noe everything already... Is very difficult for me to really accept her after all this. So dun keep saying i should ok? i'm hurt more than enough... i have the right to protect myself now...