今日は.... Wednesday, June 3, 2009 です。
I felt like an idiot when trying to save our friendship. i really dun noe wat to do now. Ask u out for movie straight away reply see first. then on that day ask u again i have to wait so long for ur reply. And in the end wat is the reply? ' i not going watch le'.... And the next day u meet others up to watch movie... Watching wif me will let u felt like i'm going to kill u? So fast next day can go watch wif others... U!!!! going to places wif others which when i ask u u will say no money or dun wan go la.... so unfair... Wat have i been doing for more then 4 years? From time to time u will make me angry... But u always have that 'she will forgive me wan la' attitude... Yes indeed i will always forgive u as i noe ur personally well and i dun wan to destroy our friendship... Everytime u need me then ask me go out wif u... When no need me ask u out u will reject me... Now i really felt like giving up... I really feel like an idiot here... I have been having sleepless night for this few days becos i keep trying to tell myself is just another small thing u have done which make me angry again... but end up imagining myself holding a knife and wan to kill u... My old problem is coming back again... In the past, when i hate someone, i will always imagine him or her got knock down by a car and me standing there doing nothing.... Or i will just imagine bad thing happen to that person... I really cant believe this few night, that person i will be imagining will be u... I never tot that there will be this night...